I hate that, as a person
who falls under the queer spectrum, I am expected to be
something I am not.
I hate that I am supposed to buy into this system.
I hate that I must fit some made up dichotomy
of masculine or feminine, top or bottom, bear or twink.
I hate hearing the sneers from my so called peers, of
“Oh, him- he’s just halfway to gay”.
I hate that I am supposed to strive for assimilation,
the image of a guy in a dress shirt and tie
non-threatening, upper middle class
character on some shitty ABC television show.
I hate Ryan Murphy.
I hate that the race my skin color allows me to pass as
expects me to just forget about EVERYONE who doesn’t
have that privilege.
I hate that this capitalist version of marriage
is considered the end all be all issue
when there are people being murdered
for daring to pass as the gender they are
while being the color they are
when there are people sleeping on the street
because they were denied housing, jobs, all that
life liberty bullshit you proud patriots are always
going on about.
I hate that I am expected to tell people who see me
as less than human, “I respect your opinion, but…”
because no, I don’t fucking respect your opinion
and I don’t respect you.
I hate that there are queer people who say things to
me like, “Pansexual? Does that mean you’re, like,
attracted to animals or something?”
I hate that I, after saying all of this,
feel the need to apologize for being so angry.
I hate that, as a queer person who is attracted
to all genders and does not feel like a part of the
I am not supposed to exist.